April 26, 2008

  • Strange Times

    The past two days, it's been freaking snowing every night.  Between the two days, we got about a foot of snow.  But, the next day it gets up to 70 degrees and melts all the snow. It's such weird weather: nights of snow, days of sun.

    I am quitting my job on Monday.  I will go in and hand my boss the final notice. Then it's just putting in the last few weeks.  It's a stress and a relief.  I know once I've turned in my notice, the stress will be mostly gone.  My family and girlfriend have been amazingly supportive, and I couldn't do this without them.

    I also think my work with the clan has helped me a lot.  In the last few months I have felt a growing confidence and ability to manage situations like this.  I'm not as terrified anymore of the ridiculous outcomes my mind conjures up.

    I don't have a replacement job waiting.  Oh, well.  I'll find one, and I am not going to worry myself about it.  I'll find a new job, and I will have time to get some of the things I needed to get in order in my life as well.  Maybe start that business I always wanted to start.

    I am finally reading books again in my free time, which in turn inspired me to start writing again.  I hadn't written in almost six months, and I haven't done serious reading in almost two years.  It's good to be doing it now.  It feels right.

    ashram